Vent

I take my MCAT the day after tomorrow. Or should I say, I'm demolishing my MCAT the day after tomorrow.

I'm going to say it, regardless of my fear of sounding emo: I feel so incredibly alone right now. Being back in the suburbs, I still feel like I'm the only one going through this right now. Of course, I have friends that are studying like I am, but for some reason I feel like, no matter how much I put in, it's not going to pay off. It's still not enough, because my 100% is only the average person's 75%. I don't even know what 100% is, to tell you the truth. Yeah, I can alienate myself from society and drown myself in books and practice tests, but in this case, time does not equate to success. I feel like no matter how much I cut off people, no matter how much caffeine I intake, no matter how fitted my earplugs are, failure is inevitable.